Friday, May 22, 2009

A few Mother's Day Favorites...

We went on a walk through some really big trees for Mother's Day. What a fun and relaxing day! Daddy and Evelina went shopping for some things for Evelina to pick out for me. So cute! She picked 2 garden stakes - one, a cute little pinwheel and two, a yellow flower. We put them in our little herb garden together. She also picked a lovely windchime that we hung on the patio. She had a great time picking presents for me.

I kinda spoiled the present buying fun a bit because I bought my own gift this year. While I am excedingly happy with my purchases, it wasn't quite as fun. I will get some pictures of my gifts soon.

Here are some favorite pics...


Gotta have matching outfits ; )


The Happy Couple... we are 8 1/2 months here.


The dogwoods were in bloom and beautiful!

Daddy taking her through a big tree!

She loves to play pirates with sticks... It was really cute until she poked my backside for the 50th time ; )

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Abide

This has been the word for me from the Lord. I have had the hardest time understanding what has been going on with me and Him lately. My usual "read the Word and get some great revelation to journal" method was not working. I have been going to the Tuesday morning sets at RHOP (who is that worship leader! he is amazing!) but have not really been able to enter in. I felt that I have not been able to connect because of the agenda of those sets but I think it is more than that. I have been coming with an expectation to meet Him and experience the amazing relationship I have had in the past. I have come to realize that while having expectation to meet the Lord is good, having an agenda on how that should happen is not good. It has been my agenda that has gotten in the way of me connecting.

This past weekend at the women's retreat, I had some time to reflect and pray. The Lord met me and said I am in a new season in which my old methods will be rendered ineffective. He said he wanted me to just abide in Him. I have known that His presence always surrounds me. Now, he wants me to abide with Him eternally. I can go through a day and not acknowledge Him at all. Sad but true. He wants me to abide and acknowledge His presence continually.

Jill Prado, a pastor at The Rock and one of our retreat speakers, likened the stages of the Christian life to stages in an eagle's life. She really helped me to put words to some of the things I have been feeling. I have felt for some time now that I lack vision. I know I am called to raise my daughter and care for my household but on a deeper level, I lack vision. I have been struggling to see what God is doing and what I should be doing on a daily basis. This has caused me pain and discouragement. I feel disconnected from God and unsure of what He is calling me to do in this season. It has even caused me to feel discouraged about how to reach my daughter.

Jill said that one of the phases an eagle experiences is the molting phase. This is when the eagle starts loosing feathers and can not fly. He is drawn away to a high ledge to let nature take its course. He not only looses feathers but his eyesight fails and he gets depressed. He can no longer find much live prey so he has to rely on other eagles who see him to drop him food.

Once this phase is over, he will have new feathers and will be able to fly higher than ever before. But until then, he just looks pathetic. I can so relate to how this eagle feels. I feel like I have been in this phase for some time now. Having this picture now of the eagle is helping me to understand a few key points. One being that the eagle's molting state is not a result of sin but a natural occurrence that all eagles experience. It feels good to know that God is carrying me and is not saying that I am enduring a consequence of wrongdoing. Instead he is encouraging my heart with love and tenderness and I endure these "growing pains".

I also take comfort in the knowledge that at some point, I will fly again with more vigor than before. I am not going to die in the wilderness but once His process to groom me is complete, I will rise up. Psalm 103:5 says, "who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's".

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Another awesome giveaway at Design Mom!

A few of you had trouble with yesterday link so here it is ...

http://www.designmom.com/2009/05/mothers-day-giveaway-week-2009-all.html

I love Orla Kiely's designs!

Monday, May 4, 2009

Don't miss this Giveaway, Moms!